One shot ficlet, Boromir/Faramir

[archet]

I have this, almost resistance to post this. Have been all about the fluff fic lately, though recently I've had B/F on the brain (lovely thing to have on the brain, right? *g*) but then Faramir shows up and demands a moment to angst, just a little. As usual-and I've said this before-I tried to leave him on, if not a happy note, at least a hopeful one.

Title: Someplace Far From Here
Author: Archet
Pairing: Boromir/Faramir, mention of Faramir/Éowyn
Rating: PG
Summary: Faramir is left with a dream, and a hope.
Archiving: My LJ, please ask first if interested.
Disclaimer: these characters are not mine, I did not create them I only made this ficlet.
Feedback: most welcomed and appreciated
Crossposted to ithilien_night, gondorcest, sons_of_gondor


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There is a dream I have. I have had it so long it seems more a memory than a fantasy, more something that once was rather than something I have only wished for. In it you are beside me, sleeping, and I am looking upon your spent body. I am pressed against your bare skin that is damp with sweat, and in the candlelight of my dream, my almost-memory, you gleam in the aftermath of our fire. There, in this perfect place of want, it is I that has tired you so. It is I that has loved you so well for so long that your fine, green eyes simply cannot remain open, even though you did try otherwise.


It is I that watches over you, my brother, my lover in body, in blood, in bond.


Some would say it is not right, this desire. Perhaps it is not right to want you so, and I do want you, wholly and completely. I do want you, and so I cannot care for what is right or wrong in it. Can love this strong be wrong? If so, then let all men be wrong for just one moment. Let them know what it is to dream.


We were both grown men before I dared to put a hand upon you. No dream, this. No, this is a memory, and I well remember the look you gave me, and the words.


I have been waiting, so long, Faramir.


It was then that I realized. You had been waiting where I had been afraid to want, to reach out. You had been waiting, and I had finally done what you could not. Be the first to try. Another few moments and I would have had my first, true taste of you, but as it happened the world made itself known and we lost our chance.


In the days that followed, we tried, but to no avail. Someone always needed you. Someone was ever at my elbow. Duty and responsibly separated us like glass walls, and through them we looked and needed yet we did not dare break them down and touch one another recklessly. Soon after our first temptation, another dream intruded upon me, one of destiny, I realize now. A dream of what would be, and then suddenly you were making ready to leave our City, and our chance was leaving with you. I mourned its loss the day you set out for Rivendell almost as much as I mourned the loss of your presence near me. You were going far away, and never had we been so parted.


I think I knew, even then, that I would never lay hands upon you as a lover would do. I watched you ride away, and I knew, I would never be granted the chance to show you how much I loved, how much I wanted. How much I needed.


Some time after your departure, a new dream came and showed itself to me. It spoke to me that I had lost more than a chance at loving you. I had lost you. Much later, my king told me where, and how, and your last words. I thanked him and have not spoken of it again. Since, the memories of you I hold dear and my cherished dreams are yet still my faithful companions. Both are like the sunlight against my skin, golden and beautiful, and will warm me, always. And like sunlight, I cannot hold them near, or make love to them, or press them close to my heart...well, perhaps I can, after a fashion, but only in a way that brings more pain than happiness.


Loving you without boundaries is what I wanted. Even now, with a devoted wife of whom I honor, of whom I have come to cherish, you are what I want. My wife knows, and though we two have never spoken of it, I believe she understands me in ways few ever have. We are alike in that way, understanding without words.


You are someplace far from here, lost to me, and nothing can mend the ache that truth has wrought, though my dream remains, just as my love has, just as my want has. These all I hold for you still, as ever. These all I hold, along with one lingering hope that one day, when I travel beyond the ties of this world, I will find you again. I will find you someplace far from here, and there in a place that I imagine has no wrong, no right, my dream will be made true. Our chance will be realized. This hope lives within me and I believe it will come to pass, one day. How or why, I cannot say, I only know I believe in it more surely than I believe in anything. I must.


It will come to pass, and there, at last, I will love you as I was meant to, as I do now. Wholly. Completely. Always, my Boromir.

Comments

[faramir-boromir.livejournal.com]

Wonderful, just wonderful. I particularly liked You had been waiting, and I had finally done what you could not. One of the brothers always has to be the first to move, and I have typically imagined that it was Faramir. Thank you for this.

[archet.livejournal.com]

Thank you so much! Oh yes, I *always* envision Faramir as being the first to reach out and Boromir as being the one not to take the risk for if he did and was wrong...so glad you enjoyed, thanks for reading! :)

[liars-dance.livejournal.com]

I think I knew, even then, that I would never lay hands upon you as a lover would do. this ficlet is just beautiful. And I love the 'my Boromir' at the end - that little bit of hope as you said. Ah, hell - I'm all teared up now!

[archet.livejournal.com]

Thank you! I'm so pleased you liked this, even though there was only a little bit of hope at the end was slight. Faramir!muse pounced and demanded angst and I couldn't turn him away. So glad you liked the 'my Boromir', the Faramir in my head thinks in those terms, Boromir as his, *g* Thanks for reading! :)

[dream-in-a-jar.livejournal.com]

It is so refresh to read the classic to-be-or-not-to-be relationship between the brothers. Their struggled love is the bond not only between the two of them, but also the bond to keep my passion toward their paring. Thank you for sharing this story at this moment: when I almost lost hope to see something so classic and original about the most loved sons of Gondor.

[archet.livejournal.com]

Thank you, very much! I'm glad you enjoyed Faramir here. Their love has the potential for so much angst, but I really wanted to leave at least a little hope at the end for Faramir. To have come so close only to lose his chance to be Boromir's lover was too sad not to leave him a little hope. Thanks for reading! ;)

[halszka.livejournal.com]

You, like always, write so moved. I'm touching.
That 's remember me about more light AU story, you write, with Boromir and Elladan. You know I miss them

[archet.livejournal.com]

Oh, I'm glad you enjoyed this! Thanks for letting me know...I don't have any Elladan/Boromir fics in progress right now, but I still have a few ideas for them that may turn into a fic one day. I can't remember, have you read wiseheart's Elladan/Boromir series? If not I know she's love to hear what you think of them, they're lovely and that's where my Elladan/Boromir are based on. You can find her stories at fanfiction.net. Thanks for reading!

[gondorbunny.livejournal.com]

*sniffle* That was beautiful. You've captured the exact way I've always imagined the brothers being. Forever in love, forever devoted.

*sighing*

[archet.livejournal.com]

Thank you! I'm so glad you felt I captured them as you imagine them...I have to agree, forever in love and forever devoted is the way I envision them as well. Thanks for reading! ;)

[halszka.livejournal.com]

Thank you for you kind words.
I know wisehart's story about Boromir and Elladan, actually it one of my first fanfiction when I start reading them. Then I find out another community and livejournal with such good writers like you. I hope that some day she will continuing "Seal with my hart", I love it. On fanfiction is still a few good writers like Evendim or Isabeu of Greenlea.

It will be wonderful could read about that pair some new stuff (with they children?)

[txorakeriak.livejournal.com]

*swallows hard*
*wipes tear from eye*
*blows nose*

I think I just read the reason why I love the Boromir/Faramir pairing and so wonderfully written that I wonder if it's the best fic about their relationship I've ever read.

It is I that watches over you, my brother, my lover in body, in blood, in bond.
Some would say it is not right, this desire. Perhaps it is not right to want you so, and I do want you, wholly and completely. I do want you, and so I cannot care for what is right or wrong in it. Can love this strong be wrong? If so, then let all men be wrong for just one moment. Let them know what it is to dream.
This is exactly it. Actually, I didn't want to quote because I was afraid to have to quote the whole fic to do it justice, but I love this paragraph so much since it summarizes their relationship so well - you really hit the nail on the head with that.

It's really so sad that in your fic, they had never had a chance to show each other their love. I, being a hopeless optimist, still try to convince myself that they have had the chance before Boromir departed for Rivendell, but I also appreciate your way of seeing things because this puts an extra twist of hurt into an already very tragical pairing. It's strange, but I always tend to like pairings whose love is either impossible from the beginning (and thus tragic because of unrequited love or self-denial) or not possible anymore. *sigh*
A wonderful ficlet. Thank you so much for having written this and for having made me cry like the romantic sap I am.

[archet.livejournal.com]

Sorry I'm missed replying to this before now!


Thank you so much for your lovely feedback! I'm glad this touched you, and that you felt that the ficlet did a good job of reflecting Faramir's feelings and their relationship. Tragic pairings are quite addictive aren't they! I like to think that somehow these two were able to come together as well, even if it means they had to wait until after Middle Earth, they were still able to be together in the end. Thanks again so much! ;)